Dr. Todd Phillips: The Deconstruction Of A Megachurch Pastor

What happens when a pastor who spent more than two decades preaching Christianity begins to question whether he believes it himself?

In this episode of Exodus Brothers, Micah and Jake sit down with Dr. Todd Phillips, a former megachurch pastor whose nearly decade-long journey of questioning ultimately led him to deconstruct his Christian faith.

Todd takes us behind the scenes of life in megachurch ministry and shares what first began to crack his certainty, the questions he couldn’t shake, and how biblical scholarship, the geography of belief, and divine hiddenness transformed the way he understood Christianity.

We talk about what it was like to preach while wrestling with doubt, why leaving the ministry meant losing far more than a career, the depression and grief that followed, and whether he ever wished he could simply believe again.

Todd shares why his videos have connected with hundreds of thousands of people, and what it means to bring a pastoral voice into the deconstruction space.

For anyone questioning their faith—or wondering what it’s like on the other side of the pulpit—this is a conversation about doubt, loss, identity, and finding purpose after certainty.

Theme music: Jenni Potts

Follow Dr. Todd Phillips:
YouTube/Instagram/TikTok: @drtoddphillips