2. “I was constantly fighting it, and then the fight was done.” With Julianne Eanniello

Following on from our first conversation, Julianne describes how things began to change when she came to a kind of acceptance of the limitations of her physical health. We discuss the difference between the idea of surrendering, and the energetics of being brought to an actual surrender. Our conversation also covers how she sought order in the outer world as a way to control the chaos of her inner world; the layers of shame and judgement around being a victim, and how shaming spiritual teachings can be; searching for enlightenment because it’s too painful to be in our bodies; how bodies are shamed by religion; and the okayness of feeling what’s here without judgement.

We also talk about the pain of trying to prove that we’re not what the shame tells us we are; how we both grappled with death in the dark night, including the dying of old beliefs and paradigms; how we got pulled back into life and aliveness; and how the harshness of the perfectionist inner critic has gradually given way to a deep inner tenderness and kindness. And to end, Julianne is inspired to share The Journey, by brilliant poet Mary Oliver.

Julianne Eanniello is a somatic inquiry facilitator, TRE® Provider and Certified Reflexologist. Having navigated her own dark night of the soul, Julianne brings deep empathy and insight to her work, guiding individuals on their journey toward holistic wellness. Her integrative approach addresses physical, emotional, and energetic imbalances, creating space for profound healing and transformation. Through her compassionate presence and skilled practices, Julianne empowers clients to reconnect with their innate capacity for balance, resilience, and wholeness.

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Fiona Robertson is the author of The Dark Night of the Soul: A Journey from Absence to Presence, and Eve Was a Realist: Poems for the Untamed Heart. She works one to one with people who are going through a dark night or spiritual emergency, accompanying them in this challenging terrain as they rediscover and deepen into their real selves. She also offers a monthly dark night gathering group, and occasional workshops and a reflective space for therapists and counsellors.

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Mentions

Julianne mentions the book series Conversations with God by Neale Donald Walsch.

She also shares The Journey by Mary Oliver.

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