“I Didn’t Know Life Could Change This Fast” — Alana Fear on Stillbirth, Grief, and Pregnancy After Loss+

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In this episode of The Rainbow Connection, Alana Fear shares the story of her son, Warren, and the shock of experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy. She reflects on how quickly life can change, the grief that follows when the future you imagined disappears, and how loss reshapes your relationship with hope. Alana also opens up about her pregnancy after loss, navigating fear, cautious optimism, and the reality of carrying new life while continuing to grieve the child who should be here.

We talk about:

• Experiencing stillbirth after a healthy pregnancy
• The loss of innocence that comes with pregnancy loss
• Navigating grief when life felt “perfect” before loss
• Pregnancy after loss and holding hope carefully
• Living as a mother to both the son she lost and the daughter who came after
• How loss reshapes trust in your body and the future
• Finding grounding in simple, ordinary moments after grief

This episode is a powerful reminder that grief and beauty can coexist — and that love does not end when a baby dies.

Get to know Alana:

Alana Fear lives in Etobicoke, Ontario with her husband, Matt, and their dog, Walter. She is a mother to her son, Warren, whom she lives to remember, and is currently pregnant with her daughter, due this November. Alana finds meaning in the simple things — a warm cup of tea, time in nature, music that meets her in the moment — and finds comfort through journaling, creativity, and storytelling.

Instagram: @fearalana
PAIL Network: https://pailnetwork.sunnybrook.ca/

Connect with Kristin:

📍 Website: thedoulalife.ca
🌈 The Haven — Pregnancy After Loss Support Program: thedoulalife.ca/haven (use promo code RAINBOW to save $100)
🕊 RECLAIM — The PAL Birth Course: thedoulalife.ca/reclaim (use promo code RECLAIM to save $100)
🌸 Mother Like No Other — Loss Mom Community: thedoulalife.ca/mother
📸 Instagram: @the.doula.life

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