The Ascetical Homilies of St. Isaac the Syrian - Homily VIII, Part III

There is a humility that we speak about.

And there is a humility that is given.

The first is clean.

Understandable.

Manageable.

The second is devastating.

Saint Isaac does not speak of an idea.

He speaks of a man who has seen something in himself, not once, but repeatedly, until illusion collapses.

“A man who has reached this in truth and not in fancy…”

This is the dividing line.

Most of what we call humility is still fantasy.

A posture.

A tone.

A self-perception.

But true humility is born only when a man has been brought face to face with his own instability, his own powerlessness, his own inability to sustain even the smallest good without God.

Not conceptually.

Existentially.

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This is why Isaac says that everything begins with the recognition of one’s weakness.

Not as an idea.

But as a state of being.

A man comes to see that he cannot hold himself together.

He cannot secure his own heart.

He cannot even pray without distraction, without resistance, without collapse.

And from this recognition, something begins to cry out.

Not beautifully.

Not eloquently.

But desperately.

Out of need.

Out of poverty.

Out of a knowledge that if God does not draw near, he will fall apart.

This is the beginning of real prayer.

Not devotion.

Dependence.

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And yet here is the scandal.

God does not always respond as we expect.

He draws near . . . yes.

But not always by removing the trial.

Not always by granting the request.

Sometimes He withholds.

Not out of indifference,

but out of wisdom.

Because the very delay becomes the means by which the soul is held near Him.

Isaac dares to say that God defers His help

so that the man will not depart.

So that he will remain in prayer.

Remain in need.

Remain in proximity.

This is not cruelty.

It is a love that refuses to let the soul return to self-sufficiency.

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And more troubling still:

God permits temptation.

Not always.

But at times.

The assault comes.

The fire burns.

The instability is exposed again.

And the man cries out:

Why?

Why does God not remove this?

Why does He allow this struggle to continue?

Isaac answers with a severity we would rather avoid:

So that you may learn war.

So that you may be instructed.

So that you may know.

Not in theory,

but in experience;

that without Him, you are nothing.

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This is where humility is forged.

Not in peace.

But in exposure.

Not in success.

But in repeated failure.

Not in clarity.

But in the confusion of being unable to sustain oneself.

The man who does not know this, Isaac says, walks on a razor’s edge.

He may appear stable.

Even virtuous.

But he stands near the lion.

The demon of pride.

Because without the knowledge of one’s weakness, the soul inevitably attributes its stability to itself.

And this is the beginning of the fall.

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Humility cannot be acquired directly.

It cannot be chosen as a virtue.

It must be given through conditions that undo the illusion of strength.

Through delay.

Through struggle.

Through temptation.

Through the repeated discovery that one is not what one thought.

This is why Isaac says that humility is acquired only by humility’s own means.

Which is to say:

By being brought low.

By being shown the truth.

By having the inner architecture of conceit quietly dismantled.

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And here the most piercing word emerges.

Without humility, a man’s work is not perfected.

Even if it appears good.

Even if it appears fruitful.

It does not rise above fear.

It is not sealed by the Spirit.

It remains within the realm of the self.

Unstable.

Vulnerable.

Unfounded.

Because only humility forms the foundation that cannot be shaken.

A city built on humility stands.

A life built on anything else trembles.

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And so we must ask:

What if the very things we are trying to escape,

the delay, the dryness, the temptation, the instability,

are the very means by which God is drawing us near?

What if the unanswered prayer

is the mercy?

What if the struggle that does not cease

is the protection?

What if the exposure of our weakness

is the only way we will ever become real?

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We want relief.

God desires communion.

We want stability.

God gives us Himself.

And He will not allow us to possess Him

as long as we believe we can stand without Him.

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The widow cries out before the unjust judge.

Relentlessly.

Without dignity.

Without restraint.

Because she knows she has no other hope.

Isaac places this image before us for a reason.

This is the posture of the humble man.

Not composed.

Not self-contained.

But persistent.

Needy.

Unashamed.

Because he has seen the truth.

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In the end, humility is not thinking less of oneself.

It is knowing, without illusion,

that one cannot live without God.

And not merely knowing it,

but remaining there.

In prayer.

In need.

In trembling.

Afraid not of punishment,

but of losing the nearness of God.

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This is the paradox.

The man who is weak

becomes unshakable.

Because his life is no longer founded on himself.

But on the One

who draws near

to the broken.

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Text of chat during the group:

00:01:00 Fr. Charbel Abernethy: Page 186 para 5

00:07:13 Bob Čihák, AZ: P 186, #5, second paragraph

00:07:51 Fr. Charbel Abernethy: https://mailchi.mp/f5f7aa457031/bb0iyi082g

00:08:20 Fr. Charbel Abernethy: Registration link for retreat

00:13:56 John ‘Jack’: Will join you in spirit Father

00:14:32 Fr. Charbel Abernethy: https://mailchi.mp/f5f7aa457031/bb0iyi082g

00:17:51 Bob Čihák, AZ: P 186, #5, second paragraph

00:19:32 Eleana Urrego: Page?

00:20:15 Eleana Urrego: please

00:20:28 David Swiderski, WI: P 186, #5, second paragraph

00:21:35 Eleana Urrego: Replying to "P 186, #5, second pa..."

Thank you!

00:30:15 Ben: Anna: Father, in theory I understand not seeking out distractions and being present in the reality, but what about when one's reality is unbearable?  When we're exhausted, sick, unable to read or think deeply and even vocal prayer is heavy?  How does one direct that restlessness towards God?

00:30:21 Adam Paige: Speaking of repentance and uprooting the passions.. a very blessed feast of Saint Mary of Egypt to all ☦️

00:44:32 Jessica McHale: Reacted to "Speaking of repent..." with ❤️

00:45:28 John ‘Jack’: When folks  ask “how are you” lately rather than saying a half hearted “good.”

I say “better today than yesterday, better tomorrow than today”

I catches them delightfully off guard and opens some wonderful conversations

00:45:39 David Swiderski, WI: This reminds me of a story common in Latin America and not far from the truth of many humble and simple people I encountered in churches which always inspires me.

00:45:49 David Swiderski, WI: A priest was walking through the church at noon. Passing the altar, he decided to stay nearby to see who came to pray. The door opened and he frowned as a man walked down the aisle—unshaven, wearing a torn shirt and a worn‑out coat with frayed edges. The man knelt briefly, bowed his head, then left. For several days, always at noon, the same man entered, knelt for a moment, and walked out. The priest, uneasy, began to suspect he might be a thief. One day he stopped him and asked what he was doing. The man explained he worked nearby and had only a short lunch break, so he came to pray. “I only stay a moment,” he said. “The factory is far, so I kneel and say: ‘Lord, I just came again to tell you, Jesus, how happy I am when you free me from my sins. I don’t know how to pray well, but I think of you every day. So Jesus, this is Jaime reporting.’”

00:58:49 John ‘Jack’: I’ve recently heard (Ren; in one your older conferences, sorry Father 😬) that Gods grace is often most evident in the “tension” of life. 

Life v death
Having v desiring
Peace v turmoil 

So on.

00:59:27 John ‘Jack’: Replying to "I’ve recently heard …"
Agreed. She is

01:03:22 Eleana Urrego: Because in Spanish is different "do not let us fall into tentation"

01:03:52 Una: Maybe "lead us not into temptation" could be better thought of as "leave us not in temptation"?

01:05:46 David Swiderski, WI: I had a mentor that always said when I said I have a problem to come back in and say "I have an opportunity to overcome and succeed at xyz"

01:06:16 Eleana Urrego: Reacted to "I had a mentor that ..." with 👍🏼

01:06:26 Ben: Anna: if we understand that we will certainly fall if we are allowed to be tempted then we will perhaps beg God not to let us come to that.

01:06:32 ROBERT IAROPOLI: Reacted to "I had a mentor tha..." with 👍

01:12:12 Mary: Constant prayer: Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me a sinner.

01:12:27 Jacqulyn Dudasko: Reacted to "Constant prayer: Lor..." with 👍

01:14:34 Janine: Always praying for you Father!

01:15:12 Elizabeth Richards: Thank you Father!  Исус воскресне!

01:15:15 Rebecca Thérèse: Thank you☺️

01:15:16 Jessica McHale: fruitful holy week and many prayers

01:15:16 David Swiderski, WI: Thank you Father, may God bless you, your mother and this group

01:15:17 ROBERT IAROPOLI: Thank you Father!

01:15:44 Maureen Cunningham: Thank you a Blessed Easter to all, Thank You

01:15:50 Paul Grazal: Great !  Thanks Father