I Drove to the Mountain to End My Life But Then This Happened

What happens when the gun fires… but you wake up anyway?

In this episode of The Roller Coaster Podcast, I sit down with Nick Rossborough, a former professional fighter who lost his identity, his marriage, and nearly his life. One night, alone on a mountain with a pistol in his hand, Nick made a decision he believed would end the pain. But something happened that shouldn’t be possible. And moments later, a small voice from inside his house changed everything.

Nick takes us inside the darkest night of his life, the divorce, the identity collapse, the silent suffering so many men hide, and the long road back through trauma healing, breathwork, purpose, and learning to love himself again.

This isn’t just a survival story.

It’s a wake-up call.

If you’ve ever felt lost, numb, or ready to give up, this conversation is for you.

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Key Moments:

0:00 I Put the Gun to My Head

3:07 Divorce, Heartbreak, and the Breaking Point

6:30 “Dad, I Made You Cookies”

9:00 When Losing My Identity Destroyed Me

12:25 Why Men Bottle Pain Until They Explode

15:28 Reading the Bible in a Week While Falling Apart

19:08 Vowing Never to Hit Rock Bottom Again

21:52 Loving Someone When You Can’t Love Yourself

23:55 Breathwork Visions That Changed Everything

27:32 The Oxygen Mask Rule That Rewired My Life

30:46 Here’s How I Escaped Trauma

33:13 The Real Reason Men Reach the Edge

35:35 How Do You Find a Reason to Stay Alive?

38:18 Meeting the Version of Myself I Abandoned

41:07 The Bullet That Killed the Old Me

43:25 Becoming a Man Who Needs No Validation

45:50 Facing Fear Through Plant Medicine

49:48 Why Human Connection Saves Lives

52:06 Love, Empathy, and Healing Without Medication